Monday 9 September 2013

Arg Notes #36: Unknown tendencies

Self-Control
September 09, 2013

I met this lady months ago while I was in Discipleship Camp. She's interesting, besides her
glowing body tone and recognizeable curves, I think there's more to her. To be honest, I
stopped being attracted to beautiful women a long time go. I've learned my lesson. I'd
rather choose one who's beautiful inside - or take the chances for someone who's only glow
comes from the outside.

Can't say I wholeheartedly love this girl - though I was taught that love is a choice, For
now I'm only praying for her. I'm impressed on how she gives her time for the church. She
may not be perfect or rather a type of Christian who is an "all-out" for the Lord, but as I
see in her, she's doing her best for the Lord.

I decided to spend time for this girl. Calls and text messages was the only medium but it's
definetely worth it. Hours of conversation made our "getting-to-know" status to the next
level. Im tempted to reveal my intentions on her. However, I've managed to make a promise
on myself never to court a girl you are not still sure of whether she's the one or God's
best.

I'm praying for her and at the same time - I'm making a move to know her better.
Then a catastrophe came. Just when I taught we were getting "there", she stopped
communicating with me. No warnings, no reasons, nothing. That is exactly eight days before
my birthdays. I felt I was treated unfairly for this. If I did something wrong, it would be
better if she would tell me - and not attacked me with coldness and ignore bullets.

Lesson: Never assume. Never expect. Be sensitive to God's leading. Don't take advantage on whatever weakness the other one has. Just pray and be on the right track.