(8/365) Daily Journal

Priceless.

(7/365) Daily Journal

I am a positive person. But when it comes to things I am not sure of - things I am not in control of, I usually fear.

I need faith.

I have exactly 1 year to change myself, my habits, everything - to get the plan done. 

I love Shayne Lanuza. 

For this year, the plan is to marry her.

(6/365) Daily Journal

Looks like I'm out of words.

During all the disappointments in my life - all the things I'm getting afraid of, I just ask
myself  "So what God is teaching me now?"

I can't sleep. I over rate things. I'm afraid of not meeting my goals.

I'm afraid of the unknown.

(5/365) Daily Journal

Hello day!

4 hours stucked at Starbucks doing admin works and unnecessary scrolling across useless websites.

Huehuehue.  SB has changed for the past years. Before, this is a place for rest and good reminiscing with coffee and chit chat with friends. Today, it's a noise manufacturer. Customers insensitive of their noise level. Music on the background - though you really cant figure out what's the sound because it's too noisy to hear it or even recognize the lyrics.

I'm not writing to complain about Facebook.

I miss my girlfriend.

(4/365) Daily Journal

Dear Diary,

Since I am having trouble expressing through emotions, I will be starting to write. Writing my heart out. Speaking my unspoken words - pouring unexpected emotions. Chos. Ang Arts.

Four days since the start of the year 2017.

Duh.

Redundant.

Slept at 2am. Woke up at 4.

I'm too early for work so good timing I had breakfast at my gf's place.
This is once in a blue moon. Believe me.

We hardly had time for ourselves. I feel like we've been in a relationship too long that we are starting to be bored and grow cold.

Is it?

Nah, I don't believe those lies.

I have exactly one year to save up and marry her - this will be all in God's provision. I don't have anything to start with or even brag about.

I want to see myself accomplish anything - well, atleast I'll start with her.

I am full of worries and things that I am afraid of.

Very badly.

(2/365) Daily Journal

Time check: 22:56

Productive day (and yes - my stomach is productive and has its max capacity and efficiency) 

We brought our Palaweno bros and sis to tagaytay this morning - usual joy ride (the tienzo style).

Then evening, we went to buffet la fiesta at MOA with uncle bobby's side --- with Shayne

First time.

This is a dream come true - to finally introduce someone, not only pretty..hmmm. but also someone with a good attitude and a humble heart.

Naks.

(1/365) Daily Journal

      

New Year 2017.

This will not be the same as my previous "taken-for-granted", wasted, and unplanned years of my life.

This year I'm planning to get wed. I wanna get fit. I want to be financially ready. -and most of all, I want to grow more spiritually in my area that God has entrusted me.

I want to make a change not only in me, but also to the people surrounding me and those people I have influence.

Just like how Jesus grew:

• Wisdom
• Stature
• Favor with God
• Favor with Man
• Lovelife (extra lang)

This year, I want to grow. I must stop wasting time - wasting my precious resources on things that of low value. I want to put essence in what I do. I want to see myself being the person God has visioned me long before.

I must stop procrastinating.

Thank God It's Friday

Friday 091412

These past months has been a series of bitter sweet escapades and to tell you the truth, I was never contented on what's happening in and around me. Something is haunting me beyond imagination and I couldn't exactly visualize the moment it happened. The skies are getting darker and the rains are submerging the peace I had before. I am looking down on a person who used to be the angel in disguise. Now he's just a pathetic person trying to look good and forcing himself to carry the load of a heavenly man. 

I am looking for answers. No. I was looking for questions - the exact questions why is this even happening to me. Why the skies are so dark and the rains seems so disturbing?

It's Friday - and its' time to face the battle again, Who's and who isn't right in the first place.

Arg Notes #6: My Sassy Girl

Arg Notes #6: My Sassy Girl

July 4,2012

Familiar date isn't it?

Don't mind. It's all over now. Reminiscing would just be a disastrous idea. However, I would'nt put everything into trash - especially those memorable moments that made me stronger and inspired to love even more. My life is being shaped by an all-knowing and gracious God, supportive parents, and an inspiration from the only person that thought me to love truly - without her knowing. I dedicate this article to all those nearly 72 months we've shared together. The laughter. The tears. The breaking up and the getting back. EVery moments are important. It taught me to live life.

To the next person who will have her heart,

Keep this in mind.

• She is simple. Forget your first impression on her - the height, the pretty face, the perfect body. Yes, she's all that. However, the main thing about her and the first thing you should accept about her is that she's a simple person. That would mean, you can make her smile by doing "simple" efforts. Take her somewhere else without over spending- yes, she would enjoy that (just be sensitive about her likes and dislikes). She dresses simply on most occasions- but don't be too shocked when she unleashes her true fashionista side, she's has a better fashion statement than most of the women who pretends to have a celebrity sense of style. 

• Break her heart and I will break your face.

• When ordering chicken at McDonalds, Don't ever ask for a breast part. She doesn't like hard to chew parts. Order wings or thigh part Instead. Another thing, ask for salt instead of ketchup. No matter how I love dipping my crispy french fries on a tomato ketchup, salt will always be her number one choice. Lastly, make sure you have everything you need before going back to the table and after ordering. That would mean that the spoon and forks and straw is already placed on your tray. Or else, expext her viciously looking, still-cute look of her eyes. 

• She prefer Iced Tea more than SoftDrinks. She always bring a bottled water. Make sure you have one too incase of her shortage. Warm water would too, she's not that picky.

• Holding hands: 

1.  On your first (months) of relationship, don't be too aggressive especially on holding her hands on the public. She's the type of girl who doesn't really prefer public display of affection but still wants you to make her feel loved, cared, and being protected.

      2.  HOLD HER HANDS WHILE CROSSING THE STREET.

• Text her " I love you" ramdomly throughout the day. She will reply with a smiley face, "mwuah", or an "I love you too". 

• Obsessive–compulsive personality disorder (OCPD). She likes cleaning the house. She love putting things in order. She has that kind of perfectionism in terms of cleaning. So better ready yourself getting fit to work - cleaning. I help her one time in cleaning our church chapel, after that day I was sick and unable to work. She has the perfect body and motivation - for cleaning. That's one thing I admire about her. 

To be continued...

Arg Notes #5: The Agony of Too Less Stress

Daily Journal

July 3, 2012

Do you know the problem about life? It's when you don't know what you want- or even whom you want to be. Expectations defines our daily life and it seldom reflects our reality and who we really are. The blind decisions of your heart suffocates your every move and now we're living with our scars-trampled life.

Enough for this emo sidetrack.

Today was a gloomy day, yet I can't consider it a bad day. Why? Here's one of my favorite reasons.

Point 1: Our boss is absent today and the theory of cause-and-effect states that "If there's something occuring whether it's for a bad or good cause, there will be an opposite reaction". Good thing for our department. His absence totally caused a stressed-free environment.

Point 2: No Sales/Cost Study Request. If there's anything that makes my life miserable, that would be a tons of reports + an additional sarcasm from my co-workers (setting aside the new ones). This day is a procrastination day. 

Cheers anyone? :)

Point 3: It was a gloomy day- but due to a cold and rainy weather. It seems that I would have to complement this one. Todays weather makes me sleepy, relaxed, and even long for our 5pm out even more.

Point 4: If you would just look around you, you can see the aura of every managers and pretending-to-be-working employees. This makes me smile. Don't be so hard on your job.Relax and soothe yourself. This one plus the cold temperature around here, mmm, definitely a relaxing way to earn your salary.

I was quite shocked to see the clock and it's only 8:15am when It seems I've been waiting for an eternity for our long awaited 10am lunch break. It was an agony, but it leaves me no choice but to patiently wait.

Now, it's 11:04am. The next candy bar would be our 12-1pm lunchbreak sleeping time. Wuhoo!