Arg Notes #25: Don't know. Don't care.

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Have you ever felt being so concerned to someone to the point of literally giving up your life just for for her/her safety? It's the "I don't care about myself attitude". The other person is more important than anything else. Your actions - even your sacrifices - is for her own good, for her own comfort. Anything you do is for the purpose of putting a smile on her face. You cry when she cries. You smile when she smiles. Her happiness is the foundation of your joy and there's no other thing that can
make you feel happy besides her.

I am so used up on taking care of people who doesn't even acknowledge my efforts for them. I feel like I've been taking for granted with all the time and the energy that for so long

I've been giving them. They're just "there" because they needed something.Needing someone to talk to or whatever. When the time comes that they are now experiencing the "I am now alright" part of life. Boom. They're gone. They don't need you anymore.

Ofcourse I am writing with a negative spirit, so don't believe or even imitate what I am writing. This is only for my "I want-to-let-it-out" time.

These days I was forced to ignore the people I used to know - the people I used to care. Maybe it's now time to seek "new" people to care about. Start with someone new - or even new friends that will know you from the start.

I know ignoring "them" will be painful. However, this is for the better of both sides.

It's your choice to forget the things we shared. You're now enjoying your so-called oasis of life. Well sarcastically, I bid you good luck. I believe in miracles, but for you, that wouldn't be necessary. Don't worry. I don't hate you. I'm just developing new "feelings" for you. Not rejection or even hatred. There will come a time where we'll meet in both ends and I wouldn't even recognize who you are.

I did my part as you're kuya, your guardian, your love one,your whatever.

You did yours.

I don't know. I don't care.

I am sorry whoever you are. It's time to say good bye and let go of everything I care about you. You have forgotten who I am and all the things I did for you. Memories cannot be erased especially for me, but I will surely erase all my remaining feelings for you.

to all the people I used to care,

I am sorry. I don't know who you are. I don't care.




DISCLAIMER:

Yeah, I do realize and understand the meaning of this post. This is soooo not me.
Get thee away from me, Satan.

Ok now he's gone.

It is really hard to forgive - that's a fact and it is humanly. However, we all commit mistakes. We fail our Master everyday. We do stupid, illogical, and selfish decisions that makes Him go *facepalm*

Loving a person is also forgiving them.

I maybe disobedient most of the times and fail you in any way I can - but still you forgive me and still at my side.

Teach me how to forgive and be patient to the people surrounding me.

Teach me how to love like You do.

Arg Notes #20: Kim Chiu

Just a random photo collage of Kim Chiu. To be honest, I'm a big fan of this girl. Though she looked like a friend very familiar to me,  she still possessed a rare beauty - or should we say a cuteness you can't find on a regular girl.

Kimberly Sue Yap Chiu or Kim Chiu (born April 19, 1990) was born in Tacloban,Leyte and later transfered to Cebu City. She is a Filipino actress and model. Chiu first appeared on a reality TV show, Pinoy Big Brother: Teen Edition last April, 2006 and won the competition garnering more than 600,000 votes. She and third placer Gerald Anderson, with whom she had a very close friendship during her stay in the House, eventually entered showbiz and was made as a love team. Their love team was called Kimerald, a combination of their names’ Kim and Gerald, by their fans. Both were given recognition and appeared on several programs on ABS-CBN and were given endorsements. Chiu starred in her first movie, First Day High and eventually given their first solo movie, still with Anderson, I’ve Fallen for You. Chiu and Anderson starred in their very first television series Sana Maulit Muli which was shown also in Taiwan entitled Chances and was dubbed in Mandarin and will also be shown in Cambodia.
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Arg Notes #6: My Sassy Girl

Arg Notes #6: My Sassy Girl

July 4,2012

Familiar date isn't it?

Don't mind. It's all over now. Reminiscing would just be a disastrous idea. However, I would'nt put everything into trash - especially those memorable moments that made me stronger and inspired to love even more. My life is being shaped by an all-knowing and gracious God, supportive parents, and an inspiration from the only person that thought me to love truly - without her knowing. I dedicate this article to all those nearly 72 months we've shared together. The laughter. The tears. The breaking up and the getting back. EVery moments are important. It taught me to live life.

To the next person who will have her heart,

Keep this in mind.

• She is simple. Forget your first impression on her - the height, the pretty face, the perfect body. Yes, she's all that. However, the main thing about her and the first thing you should accept about her is that she's a simple person. That would mean, you can make her smile by doing "simple" efforts. Take her somewhere else without over spending- yes, she would enjoy that (just be sensitive about her likes and dislikes). She dresses simply on most occasions- but don't be too shocked when she unleashes her true fashionista side, she's has a better fashion statement than most of the women who pretends to have a celebrity sense of style. 

• Break her heart and I will break your face.

• When ordering chicken at McDonalds, Don't ever ask for a breast part. She doesn't like hard to chew parts. Order wings or thigh part Instead. Another thing, ask for salt instead of ketchup. No matter how I love dipping my crispy french fries on a tomato ketchup, salt will always be her number one choice. Lastly, make sure you have everything you need before going back to the table and after ordering. That would mean that the spoon and forks and straw is already placed on your tray. Or else, expext her viciously looking, still-cute look of her eyes. 

• She prefer Iced Tea more than SoftDrinks. She always bring a bottled water. Make sure you have one too incase of her shortage. Warm water would too, she's not that picky.

• Holding hands: 

1.  On your first (months) of relationship, don't be too aggressive especially on holding her hands on the public. She's the type of girl who doesn't really prefer public display of affection but still wants you to make her feel loved, cared, and being protected.

      2.  HOLD HER HANDS WHILE CROSSING THE STREET.

• Text her " I love you" ramdomly throughout the day. She will reply with a smiley face, "mwuah", or an "I love you too". 

• Obsessive–compulsive personality disorder (OCPD). She likes cleaning the house. She love putting things in order. She has that kind of perfectionism in terms of cleaning. So better ready yourself getting fit to work - cleaning. I help her one time in cleaning our church chapel, after that day I was sick and unable to work. She has the perfect body and motivation - for cleaning. That's one thing I admire about her. 

To be continued...

Definition of LOVE

The most spectacular,indescribable, deep euphoric feeling for someone. Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete. This love is unconditional affection with no limits or conditions: completely loving someone. It's when you trust the other with your life and when you would do anything for each other. When you love someone you want nothing more than for them to be truly happy no matter what it takes because that's how much you care about them and because their needs come before your own. You hide nothing of yourself and can tell the other anything because you know they accept you just the way you are and vice versa. It's when they're the last thing you think about before you go to sleep and when they're the first thing you think of when you wake up, the feeling that warms your heart and leaves you overcome by a feeling of serenity. Love involves wanting to show your affection and/or devotion to each other. It's the smile on your face you get when you're thinking about them and miss them. Love can make you do anything and sacrifice for what will be better in the end. Love is intense,and passionate. Everything seems brighter, happier and more wonderful when you're in love. If you find it, don't let it go. One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: That word is love.

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How would you describe your girlfriend?

A girlfriend ( my own description ) *

My first and last girlfriend. 

Jan 2009

In someway, having a girl is just normal for every guy. Being single can be a curse,.. or can be a choice. Some last for years, some last for months, though some guys just luckily finds the right one for them-without even planning for it. The kind of girlfriend a guy has is just a mirror effect of his personality, the kind of man he is.

A relationship without trust is just a part-time happiness. Why? Because lack of trust results in doubt, and doubt gives us confusions- things you are not sure of and things from the borderline of reality.

However, a relationship that is carefully molded by time and founded by mere trust , is just a perfect relationship. Hard times is just a peck of strumbling block on every love story. It is the measurement of strength in which you can see how far both of you have gone. When you trust your partner, you are telling yourself-“oh, I dont care how many girls/boys will pass in his/her lifetime, Im sure I’ll always be the one”

A girl will always be special in her own way,-but a guy will too have his special way too be break her heart.

Im writing this on my own perspective. In a matter of time, I gained her trust. But sadly, when ones heart becomes too selfish, insensitivity becomes an issue, and neglegience becomes a problem. The time spent is lessened. Concern is weakend. And Love seems to be slowly fading- instead of showing it. The worst case is breaking up-or should I say wasting up all the efforts and all the oppurtunities just because you are doing the wrong way..and you are “being” the wrong man for that girl.

A girl must be treated MORE than a man. Why? because if you love her, you will treat her MORE THAN yourself. Therefore all actions, all choices you are making whether it is for yourself or not, is not against on your loyalty to your girl. A time spent is not a time wasted - when you spent it for your girl. Every choice you make- is what you are.

You dont leave a girl just because she seems so imperfect for you, you dont leave a girl because you just found a new one, you dont leave a girl just because she lacks time for you, you dont leave a girl just because she flirts around or make you happy all the time, you dont leave a girl just because you dont love her anymore.

..now Im telling you, you are leaving that girl because your crazy enough to forget all the good things that happened to both of you and all the times she made you feel “love”.

Once you tell a girl that you love her. You dont mean, “I love you..for now and later in our relationship I might just leave you..I dont know the reason but Im sure of it”…Because love is not bound by time or either hard times in every relationships.

You say “I love you” to a girl because you made that choice in your life that you’ll accept her whole being-you will love her as herself, and not just a part of herself.

You say “I love you” because you’ve decided that whether in hard times or special moments- you’ll endure that both and become an instrument for both of your maturity.

You say “I love you” to a girl because you agreed in yourself to be a partner, a lover, and be the one who can be available during the times when tears are flowing in her eyes.

You say “I love you” because you made a special choice to be with a girl for the rest of your life

There’s a reason why a girl meets a guy.

There’s no chances in every relationship.

There’s just choices. Good ones. and Crazy ones

*Note:

I've written this blog post almost 3 years ago on my Multipy blog account (but for some unexplainable reasons I can't access it anymore)