Arg Notes #31: The Epic Announcement

It's a cold Sunday morning. I was assigned to be the MC for the Church service program that day. Mar 14, 2013. This day was I think one of the worst day of my life - to the extremes of lying to myself that I'm ok, contented, and far worst - happy with what's gonna happen. On that comin week, Jessica was scheduled to go to US unfortunately. Then here I am, the proud young guy, filling himself up with lied emotions and peculiar feelings.
I stood there in the stage announcing every birthday greetings and announcement and hollah - I almost forgot to announce this one. Good thing my uncle handed this note in the middle of my announcement.

For years I continuously resisted my feelings for her. I hated her for taking me for granted. I hated who have she become - and I can't do anything about it. It's her choice. I've made up my mind. Looking at her or even talking to her would only make me hate her more. This rage can only be healed by the test of time. My unconditional love for her has been clouded with hate and regrets.
Well there's only one to blame - it's my self.
I stood in the stage with crunching legs and a hoardy voice as I
announced her departure in a few days. I looked at her with no
feelings of blessings.

Goodbye and Goodluck - my heart whispered.
I may stop showing you how much you mean to me. Sorry for everything
but I have to choose my first love.